Idols

One idol I face again and again is called "me".  I very often make decisions based on what I vision myself to be or to do.  I calculate choices based upon my vision for my life. I assume God is going to require me to arrive at the place of His calling based upon my choices and actions and not by the humble pathway of obedience.  I do not "see" God leading me to a place of transformation and growth like He did Abraham.  I think the crisis and conflicts of my life are the result of trouble, not the intervention of God for growth.

Would God call me to put to death the very thing God promised to give me?  In love, this is a call to abandon lesser love for the greater.  Denying self and choosing to have and be nothing, is normative NT living even if it is not acceptable today.  Slavery to God is more of an idea than a practice for us moderns.  We "believe" or "know" something and extend ourselves credit as though we actually live that way.  We can see the call to sacrifices as long as the gained reward far exceeds all loss. 

I am at the crossroads of making some impossible decisions.  So I'm not going to make them. I'm going to seek the Lord and obey.  I am not going  to try to choose the right thing to do, I am depending upon a direction being revealed to me and me choosing to say "yes" to God and "no" to self (me)  For many this may seem strange.  Doesn't God give us choices is the standard theology of independent consumers, not disciples committed to follow.  Following the Holy Spirit is the path of life not judging the Spirit according to my self and my revelation of which path He should be on. 

Obedience has become synonymous with making the right choices when in reality, obedience is far from possible options.  Obedience has only to do or not.  It does not prescribe.  Enough on that rant.

Like in the cartoon below how many of us live as though we drive our relationship with God.  We live and believe as though He responds to us and not the other way around.  Often we ask questions instead of responding yo His directions and desires.  We have much to say and assume He is mainly there to listen.